Remember when i blogged about how i get anxiety when it comes to Chase's bus in the morning? I'm ALWAYS paranoid that we're gonna miss it.
Well, when i see Chase's excitement as he sees the bus coming up the road, i stop being selfish about my always impending anxiety. The joy of seeing him show emotion overtakes me. Chase goes through times where he 'leaves'. What that means is, he withdraws inside himself, and no matter what you do, nothing can bring him out of it. Usually it only lasts a few hours or almost a day, but his last episode of withdrawl lasted almost 5 days. He wouldn't smile, laugh, wave, or interact much. It was hard to see, and when he came out of it, i could breathe again. I hate seeing him like that, but it's part of his autism, and I know he has no control over it. So when he laughs, or gets overcome with excitement over anything, i relish in it, because it means he's here, with me.
This morning, i decided to take my camera with us to the bus stop.
Do you see the excitement that I see on Chaser's face?
He needs a bit of help getting up the very tall stairs.
Everyday, Chase is overcome with pure innocent elation over getting to ride the bus to school and I love that i get to be there to see it every morning. I'm so thankful I was blessed to be Chase's mom.
4 comments:
I love his face, how cute and funny. I guess the nice thing about the hard parts are that the better parts are amazing. What a perfect moment!
sweet pics, sweet mom
He's so cute! That's awesome he gets so excited for the bus. Benjamin is the same way. My dad drives the bus after school and on days Ben is in preschool he gets to go with him - HE LOVES IT! If you ever want to see him cry crocodile tears - just tell him he can't ride the bus a day.
The look on his face is adorable. He is a very cute kid.
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